280: Lazy Sunday

El told me this morning that she "loves our lazy mornings", and I couldn't agree more. I spent a good chunk of today thinking about that concept, and how I really don't give myself enough time to relax. I don't think I've had a proper day off, wherein I didn't need to get anything done, since like December.

I've had days where I didn't do anything, but that isn't the same as not needing to do anything.

Some of this is self-inflicted, there have been a few days in which I had no looming scholastic deadlines, but on those days I've had personal project or club deadlines, things I needed to be doing to get the skateboard working, or something in Wind Power I needed to coordinate or get done.

I know people that don't do anything outside of school/work though, and to be honest that sounds boring as hell.

El and I talked about this a little bit over dinner last night, but there's a goldilocks zone between complacency and adventure in everyday life, and we want to do our best to hold that zone.

For me that looks like a mostly consistent schedule, I honestly think I'll be happy with a consistent 9-5 job as my baseline. I will absolutely need that job to be at least somewhat interesting or challenging, but a consistent time schedule will be important for the rest of my plan to work out. I like to conceptualize my life as little blocks of time between big things; I operate on a constant push-pull of the drudges of everyday life against the promise of future events or projects.

That's probably a little pessimistic, especially right now, my day-to-day life has been absolutely fantastic for the last few months (especially this last one 😉), so it feels like a poorly representative baseline, but I've also been on this emotional high for so long at this point that I'm starting to maybe wonder if it could be a new baseline, and not just a transient response to the changes in my life. Here's to hoping!!

Anyway, I think super long-term (like in my career) my life is going to end up being a week or two of relatively consistent life, broken up by small trips or big bursts of project work (I'm definitely not going to stop building stuff, it's such an important part of who I am). I haven't really factored children into that picture, but I do definitely want kids, so they'll likely be a huge part of those intermittent trips and events and things to look forwards to, as well as a huge sink of my everyday time (not really a complaint though tbh).